Last Days

I can not believe that I say goodbye to my 13-year banking career today. Wow. It seems so surreal right now to be closing this chapter of life and beginning anew Monday.

It is a very bittersweet day for me today. I reflect back on my history of banking, the many lessons I learned, the people I encountered, and the expansive knowledge I accumulated. Come Monday morning I get to learn a whole new career.

Life seems to be coming together really nicely now. My stress and worry are completely over and I finally have reached internal peace. It took a very, very long time to get here, but I finally did it. I am finally going after what I genuinely want and deserve. I learned to quit settling and quit accepting mediocre. It is simply amazing at what comes your way and what doors/windows open when you achieve this mentality.

I am beyond grateful for those of you who have stuck by my side this entire time. It has never been an easy task, figuring out my life purpose, but it has finally happened. For the first time in a long, long time I finally know my purpose in this life. Thank you, everyone of you reading this (even those who aren't), for being supportive during this journey. I also want to apologize to those I have wronged during this time. It was never personal, by any means. I just went so long feeling so crappy and useless that I turned into a shell of who I used to be. I became someone who I couldn't even stand, so it truly means a lot to me for those of you still standing by me and who put up with my crap.

My Facebook is messed up right now and I have not been able to login since Monday. I have doubled work production and have accomplished several things without it. Perhaps it is a sign. Either way, no, I did not block anyone or delete anyone (in case you are wondering.) I have no clue when Facebook will be up and running again, but in the meantime you can keep up with me on here or through email; mariannerox@gmail.com

Thanks for reading!

Bye, Felicia!

I guess now is a good of time as any to announce that I quit my job. My last day in banking is July 10. I started in banking when I was 18-years-old. I have had a good run these 13 years. The industry has been good to me for the most part, but it is time to leave the nest and start a new journey. 

My new job will be setup coordinator for a mortgage lending company. The job is 5-10 minutes from my apartment, flexible hours, salary pay (literally $1 less an hour than current pay) and I get monthly bonuses. I can also transfer to Austin with this job. 

Texas Republic Bank has been a wonderful home for these last nine months. They have done an awesome job at helping me close this chapter of my life and begin a new. The building where I am is undergoing a complete 180 degree remodel, so it will be cool to eventually see the final product. 

My current apartment unit is also undergoing a remodel. A lot is going on right now, regarding remodels. Parts of my life are ending, going in boxes, etc. For the first time in life I have peace. I am freaking out in a sense, but have peace. It's weird. 

I miss my cousin, Erin. Today she would have been 32-years-old, if some asshole hadn't of killed her. I cried at work. It hit me hard today that she isn't here to share this stuff with. I miss her hugs, her laugh, just her. I miss her. 13-years later and I still feel like she'll call, or email, or something. Sadly I will never get over that. I take comfort in the fact I have met and am friends with her doppelgänger. She is very much alive and well. She is with me everyday. She has helped make this transition much easier. 

That is all I have today. 3600+ page views. Wow, just wow. Thanks for keeping up with my posts, you guys. You really do know how to make a gal feel loved and special. Take care now, bye bye then.